Assalam alaikum sisters
It's been 14 years (soubhanallah) that I am converted to Islam. A fad, a wacky idea you said?
And yet I'm still here believing more than ever, and grateful to my creator (azzawajal).
Al Hamdulillah, Allah guided me to Islam, the religion that cradles my heart every day,
me full of joy and love that fills me.
Allah gave me a gift, he became a Muslim and I'm really conscious al Hamdulillah
May Allah guide us all
TODAY 'Today I share with my conversion story you.
I wrote it a few years ago. I was responding to a sister who was doing research.
how and why you converted? And it has been difficult with the family and then your marriage was how it unfolded and how now is your life since your conversion
Meriem My name, I'm converted since 1996 mid-year mash'allah. here's my story.
Shortly before my conversion, I often went out at night, I had a lot of friends. I left and went out all the time, I had a very special life, I disobeyed my mother always poor, she did everything that I get out. I did not have a problem of conscience. My best friend was Moroccan, we were always together, she did not eat pork and had a different culture from mine. I asked him lots of questions about his religion but it was really out of curiosity, no intention to convert me. I asked her who she is god, who is the prophet Muhammad (sallallaahu Alayi wa sallam), why do Ramadan. Then came Ramadan and I wanted to do with it, I do not know why but I did. Until one day or I do not know why I felt I had to get closer to God at the time I was Catholic. My problem with Catholicism was that I had too many things I could not understand, things too inconsistent ... I started looking for me to find out who was really god, so I declared Deist. I had no official religion but I believe in one God. I did not know which, but I knew it was the God of everyone, and I knew he would guide me and help me find the truth.
This blessed day arrived. One day I went to Paris with my girlfriend Moroccan, then the RER, I asked him to teach me laugh to say a phrase in Arabic. And then she told me soubhanallah to repeat a phrase after lifting my finger, I recited the shahada, quite innocently, not knowing what it meant or not, and without knowing what I was saying. I had to recite a sentence did not matter to me at first. Always with a view to finding the truth, after I inquired about Buddhism that I was not inspired at all, after a little study the Torah, I rented the Koran at the library, then I just found myself reading it. In parallel, I worked in paris, I had internet, so I visited the site of Ahmed Deedat. When my eyes began to read articles, research this man done to compare the Bible and the Koran, I felt my heart completely capsize, to make me cry to have no desire to do something else than reading his articles. I read pages full of these texts, the truth shone before my eyes, evidence of facts that I could not not believe I had the truth before my eyes and my heart knew. So I started to learn about Islam, how Muslims live their lives, I learned a lot. I felt so good to have finally found the answer to all my questions, all his doubts and inconsistencies in the Bible ... I told my friend Moroccan quite briefly. I told my mother that I became Muslim, and I did not want to eat pork.
Things are thus engaged, my mom was able to understand me, I think she had a little trouble at first because it's true that this changes are really hard to accept but I have always explained why and how for reassurance. Now my mom tell me nothing at all and fully accepted my conversion. As for my father, we do not see hardly any, I do not know if it's for that, but it 'is not serious.
Since my conversion, I gave real meaning to my life, it never happens one day, one minute, one second without that I have a thought for Allah for my religion, I'm beaming, I have no fear for my life, I completely changed, matured, I became calm, I accept the fate and events with greater ease and I thank God what he gives me each day. I am a different person, my conversion has saved me out of my incessant and stupid, and I know that my mother has noticed. I also understood the importance of family, friendship, good place, good behavior and compliance with other ... Everything I do, my conversion and what follows, the wearing of the veil, and others, I do because I am convinced in my heart that what I am doing is best for me and if I do not do it, do not apply, I would be unhappy and depressed.
On my wedding, it just happened, but it was quite difficult for me, first of all compared to my father, I invited him, but he did not want him to come because it was not a marriage, because no mayor, yet it stood me in my heart, I am his daughter and when some thing is important to me, I feel that my father in law is there for me .. Then my grandmother and my grandfather did not want to come because they did not accept my conversion to Islam (it is always the case). Came from my heart, my mom, my sister, my aunt, my aunt's daughter, a childhood friend and my colleagues. We were separated into two houses, a living for women, a lounge for men, a halal witnessed. Festival celebrates women and men, simply. I was very touched that my family is not coming and I was very hurt. I became a better person, and yet some can not imagine changing my religion. We speak of tolerance in France and yet we do not accept the fact that I do not believe in what the bible say, I do not think Jesus can be God, or even his son, I do not believe in the trinity I believe in one God, I believe in the revelation has been the prophet Mohammed, why not leave me you one not free of my beliefs. I only started to hurt anyone, I respect my family, I help my neighbor .. and they reproach me for that? The reward for me is from God. Life down here is fleeting for me, I know that I would be very high if God wills it. Life down here is made only with illusions of people running after money, wealth, but the day we die, we carry away our good works or our money? we all go to heaven? I wish my whole family agrees with my decision because my heart that I made in weighing the pros and cons, I did it in good conscience and love for God. I have not done to annoy anyone. It's not because I am born into a Catholic family in belief that I am obliged to be, as indeed say Catholic and do not respect what the Bible calls? Who goes to Mass every Sunday, fasting for Lent, praying with a veil as shown in the bible ... this is asking a simple question that if God wants it manages to find the answer ... How can we impose on others what you do not follow or even, I am Muslim and I am proud of it. Simply ..
Assalam alaikum 
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